Summary: For lost_in_108, Prompt #32 - Reflection; Parts are written in drabble form.
She knows that she has to answer the door. It would be rude not to accept his condolences. She knows she shouldn’t blame him, but there’s this little part of her brain that uses him as her scapegoat.
She smooths her hair before answering the door.
He looks sheepish and embarrassed. Trying hard to maintain eye contact with her.
“I am so, so sorry,” he blurts out, not sure whether to hug her or not.
She lets him. They both need it.
“It’s good to see you, Jack. Thank you for coming to pay your respects.”
He looks as if he is going to say something else, perhaps even apologize again, but he doesn’t. He says good-bye after Sun points out where he can sign the guest book. When he is out of ear shot and out of her line of sight, she darts back into the room shaking.
Sun hates being reminded of Jin’s loss when she sees other passengers.
“I think I’m going to be sick,” she declares before throwing up in the nearest potted plant.
Frank holds her hair back for her.
When she’s finished, she sits in one of the chairs surrounding the table and outs her head in her hands. He rests a hand on her shoulder.
“What am I doing, Frank?” she asks through a lump in her throat.
He doesn’t quite know how to answer.
“Maybe I should just go…”
Sun doesn’t even need to respond for him to know that’s what she wants. They had never pretended that what happened between them was anything other than it was: escape, release, companionship…
“I’m here if you need,” he says from the door.
He waits for her nod before leaving.
A month later Sun wakes up feeling sick.
“Not again,” she grumbles to herself.
It’s the third time this week. She assumes it was just some bad meat that’s been causing her stomach pains and vomiting. Sun decides to see a doctor after work, just to make sure.
Her mother and father are happy to take care of their young granddaughter. Ever since she had returned from the Island, the whole dynamic of her family had changed. They actually want to help her and love her and support her. Perhaps whoever said that absence makes the heart grow fonder wasn’t too far off.
Sun hopes she won’t have to take any medication…